The name's VALERIE.Also known as VALE,VALEVALE,MEIMEI,PIGGIE and VITAGEN.She holds friends like JESSICA,KEITH,KENNETH, AISYAH,JINKIAT,JOHN,AUDREY,GWEN in her heart.And obviously she has an obsession with GREEN.Her special day's on  DECEMBER 30.It died in 2009.Studied in FAR EAST KINDERGARTEN,SCGS and FMSS.Now hoping to enroll into NGEE ANN POLY.What course,it is not confirmed yet.But she is hoping to get into the VETERINARY BIOSCIENCE @ NGEE ANN POLY.Currently working at POPULAR @ UNITED SQUARE.Aspires to be a VETERINARIAN.One day she may go to VANCOUVER to pursue her dream as a VETERINARIAN.

Such a long time ago, 
I had given up on finding this emotion, 
Ever again. 
But you're here with me now, 
Yes I found you somehow, 
And I've never been so sure. 
For the first time, I am looking in your eyes, 
For the first time, I'm seeing who you are, 
Can't believe how much I see, 
When you're looking back at me. 
Now I understand what love is.
For the first time...

hmm..something KaiYang told us during cell kinda tugged at my heart strings...like the title of this post says..he was talking about our first times.he said he had many gfs before and he felt like he had wasted alot of his first times.being the crazy romantic person I am...I immediately thought of a few romantic first times...but they are mostly what I would expect from the guy...but yea,what KaiYang said is true.being so young and 'ignorant',we waste alot of our first times hoping that the girl/guy that we're doing our first times for will become our future husbands/wives.I know it's a little far fetched..but we're already 18.soon we'll be going on to 20 going to 21.yet another BIG year for us..pretty soon you'll be facing relatives who will ask you questions like "so...got boyfriend/girlfriend already or not?" "aiyo..so old already!you're no longer young leh!you need to find a life partner soon!" and even worse,if you already found your partner "WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET MARRIED?" "WHEN WILL WE SEE THE NEW MEMBER OF THE FAMILY?" okay,call me crazyy..but I'm dead serious.it was one of the reasons why KaiYang chose to talk about relationships for cell..(not the questions above)V'Day is coming and all...so yea..we had some 'ice breakers' where KaiYang asked us questions like "what is your personal intake on being in a relationship"...natasha said that because we're seriously still young,we won't really know what is what...but I kinda feel different about it.I mean,before we go into a relationship,there should be a "checklist" on what we require in a guy.and I don't mean things like "he must have eyes as blue and zac efron's","he must have a hawt body" BLAH BLAH BLAH...personally,what I'm looking for in a relationship(one of the questions KaiYang asked)is well,there HAS to be understanding between the two parties.that is number one of my list.along with trust,faith and RESPECT.without any one of them,I don't see what's the point of being in a relationship...second will be where we come to a compromise.we have to set the line for the two of us...we must know when we have crossed the line for certain things...next,will be his sensitivity.does he know when to be goofy and serious?will he know when to draw the line when it comes to some emotions us girls usually go through?um...don't know how to make it make any sense..but yea..also,I feel that things should be able to flow naturally between the two parties.um...basically,we just have to know each other first and then well,both parties will have to be able to bring out the best in the individual..and seriously,I don't expect any lovey-dovey stuff...but it will be really sweet if you still do it...at least it shows that you do care and yea...I don't know what I'm trying to do right now...but yea,just making full use of my blog...I'm RANTING.but seriously.IT JUST GOT ME THINKING...

Time's not much of a friend
After 23 days
My patience has reached its end
But I'd take you back anyway
Hold your breath
You make the perfect sounds
This is what love is made of
And baby you've been missing out
In your eyes, I thought I saw tomorrow
Now all I see is wasted time.
Can we pretend its always been okay?
We never lost it all, lost it all
Can we pretend we never let this fade?
We never lost it all, lost it all
Let's reintroduce our shadows
Watch them become one
This room is out of oxygen
And I'm not nearly done
The familiar taste of your body
Is how I know this is right
I'm not asking for tomorrow
I'm just asking for tonight
Can we pretend its always been okay?
We never lost it all, lost it all
Can we pretend we never let this fade?
We never lost it all, lost it all
The familiar taste of your body
Is how I know this is right
I'm not worried about tomorrow

hmm...the title says it all..23 days.that's all you have.and right now you've only got 14 days..good luck.if nothing else changes,then I guess it really is over.sorry,I just had to wait and see if you'll change your mind...I can't help but wish.

You are not alone for I am here with you
Though you're far away,I am here to stay
For you are not alone.For I am here with you
Though we're far apart,you're always in my heart

HAHA!omg.God must have sent me a lucky star man!KaiGe is a life saver man!THANK YOU SO MUCH!felt so lost la the last 48 hrs.but now there is hope! =D I may be able to stay here after all. =) I think.... =x

This is not what I want,this is not what I planned
And I just gotta say I do not understand
Someting is really...Something's not right
Really wrong

things are not feeling the way they are suppose to be.it feels unreal.nothing seems real to me.I don't know when I am awake or when I am asleep.I feel like I'm being held down or pressed down by something.I feel secluded.I feel emotionless..everyday it's like I'm putting on a show for the world to see.everyone is out there testing me,watching and waiting for me to mess up.I feel lost.don't really know what is up or down,where's my left or right,I don't know if it's day or night.I don't even know what's real or fake.everything's moving too fast for me.the world's spinning around me and I am getting very dizzy.i think one day I'll just faint...

Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my Sugar Rush

I know you'll be reading this sooner or later and I'm not afraid of  you reading it.After all,you now know my secret:I Love You.So I'll just go right ahead and say it.Um,well..While meditating,this song went through  my mind.It's the song THAT'S WHY YOU GO AWAY.I just sat there clearing my mind and heart and the lyrics "you were the one to set it up and now you are the one to make it stop.I am the one who is feeling lost right now" kept going through my mind.In a way,it's true.Everything we've been through was all planned by you and now you're the one to end it.Leaving me lost.I'm sorry I can't tell you any of this face-to-face.I'll cry.Really.I won't be able to form a proper sentence or say a single word.I'm really sorry but I just can't take it.I'm weak.I remember you asking me recently if I really felt that you were the one for me.I don't FEEL.I KNOW.Please understand the difference.I don't know how to explain it but there is a big difference between knowing and feeling something.But for us,I will be strong and continue our relationship as just friends.At 1.24pm of 22 January 2010 at vivo city just outside of Coffee Bean,we are just friends.I know and I will always remember that.I will be strong and get over this phase.Now please don't feel bad or anything.Like you said once.It is because of this word "attachment".Guess I'm just TOO attached to you.So it's really hard for me to move on so quickly.Hope you'll understand and give me some time.I know you want me to be happy,that's why you're doing all this.But maybe it's because I don't really show it very often.But I am happy when I am with you.It may sound mushy but it's true.I'm happy when I am with you.But I want you to be happy too.So I will try my very best to take it as nothing ever happened and if thing go well...Yea,you should know what this result it.It was our goal a few weeks ago..Now don't you start calling me out just to talk about this.I'm sorry.I can't.It's really just too much for me.Plus,I don't want the plan to be forever changing just because I can't cope or because of me.But all I ask is for you to understand where I am coming from once again and just give me a little time.And I hope you'll let me say this one last time.I LOVE YOU.ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL.

on the other hand..today was a rather good day =) after church some of the youths stayed back for captain's ball.it was AWESOME man!really fun =) although most of us older ones got REALLY tired like 5-10 minutes into the game.HAHA.man,we're getting old. =) But after that,we got back on our feet and won ourselves some games against the juniors.HAHA.really was a great work out and a really great way of banding. =) what's more,we were actually training for a competition on 6th Feb.HAHA!so it was really something. =)

So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music.For giving it to me

hmm...suddenly thinking of my "O" level... :( so saddening..haish..

Dear Heavenly Daddy,
only You know what is deep down inside my heart.Even though I don't want anyone to know.And I know that You know that
I am very disappointed that I can't get into the veterinary bioscience course that I set my heart and mind on.But dear
Daddy,I have decided that since I can't help animal,I will help people instead.For now.After going through poly,I will then
pursue my dream as a vet.But Daddy,I made a mistake in my choice of poly courses.I put another school with a different
course as my first choice instead of what I wanted.Please.Heavenly Daddy,if it is You will.Will You let me enter the course
of Psychology and Community Service?Thank You Daddy.

Work work work work
Work work work work 
Work work work work 
Work work bitch, you better work!

today was my FIRST DAY WORKING @ POPULAR! :D kinda fun.the people there are nice I guess.. :) so far all I did was arrange the books(I'm in the EL department),help the customers with their inquiries and wrap books. :) &&&I HAD A DEJA VU MOMENT TODAY! =D here was how it goes..

lady customer:hi,can you help me find this correction tape....(cannot remember the details)
me:okay,sure.let me find it for you.
lady customer:(turns to her son)come on.let's go
so we went to the stationary section and I started looking.stupidly,I walked pass the whole display of the correction tapes... -.-
lady customer:I think it's over there..(points to display)
me:huh?(looks)oh...(in my head...GAWD WHAT AN IDIOT..) hmmm..let me see
lady customer:the other time I came here,I bought this one..(bends down to look for the refills)
me:oooh...this one..yea,I'd suggest you get it too..more worth it.
lady customer:yeah,I know..but I only want the case
*DING**DING**DING* DEJA VU
HAHA.in the end I found the correction tape for her and my heart was thumping away... :O HAHAHA.ahwelll =D tml going to work again!YAY~

• Mood: Indescribable
• Lucky Color: Pink
• Lucky Number: 5
• Lucky Time of Day: 9pm

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you know who you are 
And to me it's exciting when you know its meant to be 
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally 
When you're with me, baby

HAHA!guess what?I finally got a job. LOL.at popular.HAHA!went for the interview today. :) gonna earn like 45 bucks a day...HAHA.ohwell..it's still money right?HAHA!um...just decided on my choices of poly courses too.really really hope I can get into the veterinary bioscience after JPSAE and appealing.JAE doesn't quite allow that. :( &I've only chosen 10 courses..haish.so sadded..STILL!anyway,talked to aisyah today. :) HAHA!miss that stupid bimbotic girl man.HAHA! :) feels great talking to her again.glad that life's getting better for her now.she's earning her own moolah to buy her own things.HAHA!&now I am too! ^_^ hmm..I'll be starting next monday..let me see..this month I'll earn about...(not trying to show off,please don't think that of me...) 675bucks.. :0 that's alot..HAHA! :) YAY MOOLAH! :) :) :)

[EDIT]I feel oh-so tired right now.I'm glad that daddy and mummy will always be there for me.whatever choice I have made,they will always be there for me.but right now I'm not sure if I am making the right choice..I really am as stubborn as a mule.once I set my mind on something,nobody can change it..don't know what I'd do if I can't do my dream course and fulfill my dream.I'd rather just shoot myself dead.NOT.I'd go overseas I guess..come back to Singapore when I am at my peak and show the world what I am capable of.in the mean time,please don't push my buttons.if you don't want me to blow in your face..LEAVE ME ALONE.can't wait to start work..keep myself occupied.[/EDIT]

It messed me up, need a second to breathe .
Just keep coming around.
Hey,whatcha want from me

stress of deciding what poly course to choose is slowly creeping up and above me.I don't know what to do.I mean..c'mon!what's so hard choosing a couple of courses?for one,(this is stupid) they don't have the course I want listed there.but I am going to appeal and try JPSAE.number two is well,I don't really have much interest in the courses listed..only ones I am interested in is Ngee Ann's Film,Sound and Video Course,Singapore Poly's Interior Design Course,Applied Drama&Psychology,Visual Effects&Motion Graphics,Temasek Poly's Visual Communication,Apparel Design&Merchandising and Republic Poly's Outdoor&Adventure Learning.and that is only like 7 out of don't know how many other courses they gave me.some that I listed in my JAE I'm not really that enthu about it.&I was actually done with my choices and was going to send in the admission when I realized we have to pay like 7bucks just to submit it in?&because I didn't talk to my parents about my choices,I can't send it in until I tell them about it.feel really heavy in my heart...parents not there when I need them.LIKE NOW!daddy working,so don't blame daddy.but mummy..she's home most of the time but she doesn't want to help me make a decision..keeps asking me to go find daddy..i don't mind l.but can you like help me at least when daddy's not around?sometimes I really can't help but hate you,you know..it hurts me to say it but I really do hate you sometimes...but whatever it is..MUMMY!I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO,I ALWAYS WILL AND ALWAYS HAVE LOVED YOU! <3

Back to zero, your time's about to come.Let them know you're not just anyone.
Your time's about to come.Scream,'til you feel it.
Scream,'til you believe it.scream, and when it hurts you.
SCREAM IT OUT LOUD!

*screaming my head offff...* this is it...our future is going to be revealed to us in 3 h ours times...guess what?I'm still in my Pjs and I am thinking of skipping the whole "O" level results.. :( *sigh* guess now all I got to do now is to prepare for the worse mentally and whatever the results,I will hold my head up high and take it as it is..after all,I know that I have tried my best.I have given my 120%.everything is in the hands of the marking of the cambridge markers and in God.. :] gotta do something to take my m ind off of it for the moment...damn...

GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE TAKING BACK THEIR "O" LEVEL RESULTS TODAY!HOPE YOU ALL GET THE RESULTS THAT YOU WANT!ALL THE BEST! :)

[EDIT]
hmm.."O" level results were disastrous. :( it ends here right now..
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Got to fight another fight,I gotta run another night.
Get it out,check it out.I'm on my way and I don't feel right.
I gotta get me back,I can't be beat and that's a fact.
It's OK,I'll find a way.You ain't gonna take me down no way.
Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it.
Dont' push me,I'll fight it.
Never gonna give in,never gonna give it up.
If you can't catch a wave then your'e never gonna ride.
You can't come uninvited.Never gonna give in,never gonna give up.
You can't take me I'm free.

:) all smiles today.although I woke up feeling uber tired.went to check out SP and TP with daddy.haish...the more time I spent there,the more I didn't feel like making any choices and just let things be.I really can't stand another day of waiting for the results and then having to change every single plan I ever had.it's really frustrating..to top it off,some courses I chose will be rejected by one or the other...or there will be people asking me to do courses which I have ZERO interest in..what's the point of doing something that you don't like and then sucking at it...?waste of time,waste of effort..eeesh..but really,I can't take another day of choice making..I'd blow I tell you,like a freaking volcano.UGH.(NOTE:just realized I was suppose to be all smiles today..but then I think my smiles just evaporated...so no smiles..)

Just walked thru the door,what's it gonna be
I can't get to the floor,boys all over me
What it’s gonna be
Where my party, pa’ party party pa’ party people at? 
Where my party, pa’ party party pa’ party people at?

hoho..prom is in about 2hrs time and I am so not ready to go for prom. :| too lazyyy..HAHA!did alot of walking today..and standing..HAHA.went to ngee ann poly with keith.kenneth didn't want to go. :( WHY KENNETH WHY?YOU BIG DUMMY!ahwell..it was kinda fun at ngee ann.HAHA.went to try out some of the CCAs.we did floor ball,some japanese cultural thing and archeryyy... :) HAHA.then walked around the school to check out some of the courses.HAHA.&&we did a photo shoot for teenage..?HAHA.so coolll..!then just before we left,I met Rachel Seetoh from from SC..HAHA!of all places..didn't know she was studying in ngee ann..if I ever get into ngee ann,we may see each other ofter..after all,we will be in the same department.HAHA!how nice.. :) okay,gotta get ready for prom now.. :( not that hyped up about it...sigh...

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
<3

:) yesterday was seriously the best day of my life for 2010. :) I don't think anything can ever take over it's place as number one for my most favourite/memorable day of my life. :) went to ECP with BESTFRIEND.cycled for about 4hrs.rented the double-seater bike.HAHA.BESTFRIEND kept trying to make me cycle infront.almost banged a few times :O HAHA.but we survived. :) BESTFRIEND didn't dare eat his applepie he bought from mac earlier..HAHA~but in the end he still managed to eat it as I slowly mastered riding the bike. :) &then we played in the water. :D it was nice. :P cold but enjoyable.HAHAHA! :) after that went to parkway parade to buy carl's junior and some gyoza.went to the lighthouse there and ate. :) really the best night and day of my life. <3

You gotta scream until there's nothing left with your last breath
Say here I am.
Here I am,make em listen.
Cause there is no way you'll be ignored.Not anymore.
Say here I am.Here I am.Here I am.
You only get one life to work it.So who cares if it's not perfect.
Say "it's close enough to perfect for me".Why should you hide from the thunder.
And the lightening that you're under.Cause there ain't nobody else you want to be.

today was kinda fun. :) went to ECP..despite my poor sunburnts shoulders..HAHA!btu it was still fun. :) &it was today that I actually felt a sense of freedom.. :) really,I don't know why but I seriously felt...free.HAHA.
&another thing...I AM SERIOUSLY DAMN FRIED RIGHT NOW! :D HAHA. :) my skin feels really crispy and yeah..if you see it from the view of my nickname..I am like some BBQ pig or beacon..HAHAHA! :D how nice..HAHA.kinda hard to dress up now too..cause all my clothes will rub on the sunburnt spot..HAHA.so I have been wearing tank tops and razor backs the past few days..HAHA.kinda running low on tank tops now too.. :) &last night I wore a freaking dress for dinner...HAHAHA!that was the only loose clothing I had at that moment.. :O HAHAHA.bleargh.ahwell... :)

CRAZY!Baby,I'm so into you.You got that somethin,what can I do.Baby, you spin me around.The Earth is movin,but I can't feel the ground.Every time you look at me.My heart is jumpin, it's easy to see.You drive me crazy,I just cant sleep.I'm so excited, I'm in too deep.Ohh...crazy, but it feels alright.Baby, thinkin of you keeps me up all night.Tell Me, you're so into me.That i'm the only one you will see.Tell me, i'm not in the blue.That i'm not wastin, my feelings on you.You drive me crazy,I just cant sleep.I'm so excited, I'm in too deep.Ohh...crazy, but it feels alright.Baby, thinkin of you keeps me up all night.Crazy, I just can't sleep.I'm so excited, I'm in too deep.Crazy, But it feels alright.Every Day and Every Night.You drive me crazy,I just cant sleep.I'm so excited, I'm in too deep.Ohh...crazy, but it feels alright.Baby, thinkin of you keeps me up all night.You Drive Me Crazy (You drive me crazy baby).Ohh..Crazy, But It Feels Alright.Baby,thinkin of you keeps me up all night.Baby,thinkin of you keeps me up all night.

Hmmm...it's now officially 2010! :) &here are the things I did on the first day of 2010.HAHA!sorry if some of them are just O_O HAHA!

1. SNEEZE(that was the first think i did)
2. GOT HIT ON THE HEAD BY MUMMY
3. WOKE UP AT 10
4. HAD MAC FOR BREAKFAST
5. BLEW OFF MY FIRST DATE [ :( so sorryy..]
6. WORE A TANK TOP
7. EXPERIENCE MY FIRST SUNBURNT FEELING

HAHAHA!kinda weird huh?some of the things listed.HAHAHA!but before you "judge" me...let me explain the events first. :) no.1 was because I was having a bit of running nose,so when I came out of my room I started sneezing like mad.no.2 was I was joking with mummy about something and she bonked my on the head.LOL!no.3 was I was really just so tired..so yeah..no.4 was mummy and daddy's idea.HAHA!no.5 was because...it was really far,the meeting palce.but if I didn't have dinner to go to,I'd definitely make it for the date.no.6 and no.7 is a pair.on the last day of 2009,went WWW and yeah..became super chaoda!&now I can only wear loose clothings and only can wear sport bras...HAHAHA!the normal ones are seriously killing me.the straps are continuously rubbing on the sunburnt spot..LIKE RIGHT NOW!damnnnnn.. :) HAHAHA.so yeah.that's all folks. :)

All is quiet on new year's day
A world in white gets underway
I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes on new year's day

HAHA!guess what..?I'm SUPER chaoda right now. :) just got back from wild wild wet.spent like 4hrs there..?&all I wanted was to just get light tan..?it happened the last time I went.spend 4hrs there and I got a little darker.onlty,it faded a few days later...HAHA!but this time,it is staying for good. :) kinda like my tan though.although it looks really weird.HAHA!hmm..2010 is coming tml. :) a new year is starting and it's time to start anew again.HAHA!can't wait for CNY man!all the ang paos. :) HAHAHA!can put them all in the bank and never touch them!HAHAHAHAHA! :) next year there's also quite a lot of events...I think..um,new years celebration..?with family?friends..?HAHAHA.um,didi's and daddy's bday coming too...HAHA! :) there's the fairfield prom:the gala.getting of "O" level results..HAHA. :) kinda nervous and excited.nervous for my results but excited to see my friends and school again. :)

hmmm..well,today was my bday. :) surprisingly,it was kinda great.woke up and got a few birthday smses from shreedhya,kwanshyan and john.after that got one from noelle.HAHA. :) did some shopping with momma.then went to plaza sing and went to 77th street and I finally bought my very own fedora hat!YES!but then after that I felt kinda offended at the shop...I don't know why but I think they were trying to hide something on the floor.So instead of like using some random piece of paper...THEY HAD THE USE MICHAEL JACKSON'S PICTURE AND PASTE IT ON THE DAMN FLOOR AND HAVING EVERYBODY FREAKING STEP ON HIS PICTURE!like what the hell man!UGH.whatever.so after that went to united square and then met Jessica.talked over fried wonton.HAHA! :) then we went to find a present for her friend.guess what we bought..?we bought two freaking hermit crabs!HAHAHAHA! :D awesoem huh?so yeah...it was my own birthday celebration with my family.really enjoyed it. :) HAHA!then I logged on the FB and saw that I had like a tonne of bday wishes on my wall..HAHAHA!no la,not so kua zhang.HAHAHA!but yeah...all in all,thank you everyone! <3

PERSONAL MESSAGE FOR MY SPECIAL PEOPLE OUT THERE! :D

to JESSICA:
Jessica,thank you so much for always being there for me the past 11 years.going to 12.that's like a decade plus already. :) although we have been argueing for like the first 6 years,I want you to know that I really treasure you as a friend.like I have said in the christmas card I made for you.FRIENDS ARE LIKE BRAS.CLOSE TO THE HEART AND ALWAYS THERE FOR SUPPORT. :D you will always be kept close to my heart and I will always remember you.LOVE YOU MUCH MUCH! <3

to KEITH:
Mr Sun Sun Mr Golden Sun!HAHAHA!thank you for always being there for me the past 5 years of my life in fairfield.thank you for giving me a bunch of really great memories to hold in my heart.although there are times when I am awfully quiet,thank you for always being so patient with me and encouraging me to open up more.um...although there have been some "events" that happened between us...thank you for not turning your back on me and thank you for still treating me as a friend despite all the "events".also,I want to thank you for ALWAYS trying to cheer me up when I am at my worst.weather I'm crying,grumpy,pissed or tired.thank you for always coming up with many ways of cheering me up.&remember the bday card and christmas card I made for you.HAHA.I really mean it.I will always keep you close to my heart and I will be relying on you for support anytime soon!LOVE YOU LOADS! <3

to KENNETH:
PIZZAPIE!HAHAHAHA!hmm...first of all,you seriously got to start eating more...seriously,can't stand you man!you're so damn freaking skinny..?like a bamboo..?HAHAHAHA!um..yeah,thanks for always trying to cheer me up when I was down.somehow your power and keith's power of cheerfulness is unevadeable.HAHAHA!always can't help but smile and laugh at ya'll when ya'll try to cheer me up.Thank you!LOVE YOUUU! <3
[EDIT]
this was requested by kenneth..eesh.here's all that I am adding..YOU ARE SO DAMN FREAKING RANDOM!happy...?HAHAHA
[/EDIT]

to JOHN:
John arh John..I don't know what to say to you man!HAHA!mostly because you're serious freaking random la!HAHAHA!but thanks for always being there for me when I needed someone to talk to. :) You're like my boredom reliever or something.HAHA!but really..thanks a million for being such a great friend.LOVE YOUUU! <3

to AUDREY:
Aud aud.. :) um,although we're always fighting over little petty stuff...thanks for still being a sport and being there for me when I need a little girl time.will always remember the happy memories we have and all the tuition sessions we had together in laugher.I will definitely always remember our tearful moments together.HAHAHA! :) LOVE YOU!

to GWEN:
Gwen arh gwen...although we hardly really talk or go out together anymore.really want to thank you for still being a friend. :) will definitely remember our sec2 and sec3 year in my heart. :) LOVE YOU!

to JOEL:
Joelee!HAHAHA!thank you for always being the "BIG" korkor!HAHAHA.always bully me...HAHA!for once I will say this...SMALLER THAN CHU!HAHAHA! :) thanks for being a friend to me and thank you for helping me with my "O" level art!LOVE CHU!

Drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Wait-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink I think of you
Tonight,I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
When heavy wings grow lighter
I'll tast the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
If my voice could reach back to the past
I'd whisper in your ear
OH DARLING,I WISH YOU WERE HERE

Hmmm..today's kinda slack.HAHA.no letter came in today. :( how sad.left to do nothing but stone.HAHAHA!but it was worth it I guess..I got to write down more song lyrics.HAHA.wrote down VANILLA TWILIGHT,ART OF LOVE,THAT'S WHY and LAST CHRISTMAS.yesterday wrote down the lyrics to RUSSIAN ROULETTE.see how much time i have...?so much time I can surf the net for the lyrics and not print them out but write it all down.HAHAHA! :) feel like finding more songs to write.after all,it's about another 3hrs before I can knock off.HAHAHA!maybe I should.make te best out of it.it is my last day of work here after all..HAHA!

anyway...tml's my bday.not doing anything tml either.feel kinda weird not having anything on my agenda for tml.usually my whole day will be booked.chopped up into many sections.HAHA!like from morning to afternoon is so ans so.then after that is so and so then at night is confirm for family only.HAHA.btu then this year is just a blank piece of paper. :( hoping to go out with jess but I think she's still away in cambodia.suddenly I'm missing cambodia.that place has some really ncie memories. :) shall go back there one day.alone. :) hmm..anyway,my bday.it's a good thing I've given up on it already.otherwise I'd be so damn disappointed when everybody said they were not free tml.whoop-de-doo-da.like how nice.everybody just coincidentally have something on on the special day of mind.BLEARGH.whatever.not going to bother anymore.but yeah,going to celebrate it early tonight.going to JACK'S PLACE for dinner then go UDDERS for ice-cream..HAHA

hmmm...yeah,so the new year is coming.kinda excited.new year,new life,new me.I guess there's going ot be a new me.at least I'm working on it..um,let me make my first new year resolution first...HAHA.let me see...

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION:

1. OPEN UP MORE TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME
2. BE MORE ENTHU ABOUT CHURCH STUFF
3. MAKE FRIENDS WITH THE GYM
4. TAKE UP SWIMMING AGAIN
5. CLEAR UP MY WARDROBE AND GET NEW CLOTHES ( ;D )
6. BE NICER TO DIDI&MEIMEI
7. HELP OUT WITH THE HOUSEWORK MORE
8. LEARN HOW TO COOK

   HAHA!I think that's all..not really a new year resolution but yeah...I'm aiming to do most of the things there...HAHAHA!haish... :) suddenly,I'm missing you,ya know that...?hmmm...bye now

And you can see my heart beating
Oh,you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified,but I'm not leaving
I know I m ust pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Hmm..well,I'm back at LCP again.HAHA.um,feeling really bored now..wondering why the mailman's not here yet..cause there is seriously nothing for me to do right now.um...in the past 1 hour,all I did was log in the letters that were to be sent out,listened to RUSSIAN ROULETTE on youtube and I just finished copying down the lyrics...ohyeah.A FREAKING COCKROACH JUST CRAWLED PASS MEE!gawd.almost had a heart attack..seriously,my heart almost flew into my mouth. =o ugh.&it's starting to get cold in here.. O_O it's 22 degree celcius..think I'm getting sick..been sneezing alot lately,getting lots of runny noses too.ahwell...um,just a random thought.it's 2 more days till my b'day.HAHA.don't really know what I wanna do.hmm..don't really know what I was for my bday either...HAHA.anyway,last night daddy asked why I didn't write a christmas wish list for santa this year..didn't know I didn't write one this year..neither do I know why I didn't write one this year..hmmm..so yeah,then daddy asked if I had written a wish list what would i have in it..I told him I wanted a laptop,instant print camera and a new phone.&I knew he was going to say no.since I asked mummy already and she said no too.. :( so sad..and yeah,daddy again asked me what I wanted for my bday.besides the 3 thing I asked for last night.seriously don't know what I want now...haish..this is really really sad..when I was younger,I used to LOVE gtting presents.&if I don't get any,you can really see my face drop and I ALWAYS knew what I wanted for christmas or my bday..but right now,nothing seem to interest me..EXCEPT those gadgets and shoes and maybe some clothes..gawd.this is so depressingg....! :(

I'm talkin' bout love
I'm talkin' bout love
Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do

HAHA!been awhile since I last posted something up here..mostly because I'm too lazy to come on to use the comp..HAHAHA!hmmm...anyway,the past few days was okay..nothing much really happened.only thing exciting was yesterday where I went to play badminton with cousins,siblings,aunt and uncle..muscles are hurting now. =o ooohh..the day before went for a swim with cousins they all too...went to watch new moon with brother and his friends the week before...the show was one word.BLEARGH!seriously,they changed like quite a lot of the plots..?was so damn sad la!when I came out of the theatre,the first thing I shouted was "THE MOVIE SUCKS MAN!" and a lot of people turned to look at me.ooops..fans of twilight saga...HAHAHA!whatever man.my expectations were really high for the show la... =( so disappointing..but mr fantastic fox was nice.HAHAHAHA!not too bad la.quite cute. =] hmmm...christmas is coming up now.tomorrow's christmas eve...still haven't gone christmas shopping yet..going to go tomorrow...going to orchard central.heeeee =] yeah,so merry christmas and a happy new year people.

hmmm...it's been 4 days since you've left for your holiday and I'm really missing you like crazy! =] keep dreaming of you too..heh.&&&sometimes out of the blue I'll suddenly start to think of you and my heart will do a tight little squeeze.. =o HAHA!sometimes it's so painful that I'll tear.it's like when you left,you took a part of me with you..so be safe okay?that's the best present you can ever give me.really...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

the title and the qoute says it all..while you're gone for your holiday,I'm stuck here at home missing you with no way of getting out of this whirlpool. =] been trying like hell to get a job.gwen's found a job for me but they have not called me like they were suppose to. =[ so sad..so yeah,I'm seriously rotting like hell at home AND missing you like crazy.. =] feel like some sick puppy..ugh.&me staying at home is seriously driving mummy crazy cause I'm always getting in the way..HA.I'll usually dilly-dally and take my time in doing things..so it seriously drives mummy crazy...&christmas is just round the corner..haven't done any christmas shopping yet.. =[ &&I am seriously running low on moolah..mummy say daddy's boss is not around so he owes me like 2 days worth of pay..wanna know how much he owes me..?he owes me like 162bucks..? =o crazy manssss...&&&there's like a MJ tribute concert coming on the 15th of December and there's nobody to go watch it with me...!jess wont be around to catch it... =[ aw mann...mummy was like "not the real thing you want to go for what?go watch the real person perform is so much better..." but what the heck,it's a freaking one night tribute concert for MJ..who cares if it's not the real deal..as long as it's MJ,I'll be there...ahwell..i wont be watching it anyways...watching it alone is no fun..anyway,today I spent the day watching the rented DVDs I rented on wednesday...awesome man!I finally got to watch finish the show BRING IT ON;IN IT TO WIN,HOUSE BUNNY and BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER.HAHA!yeah,I know...the last show is kinda over-rated..HAHA!but the show's awesome.. =] HAHAHAHA!yeah..I'm feeling really bored now and I think I'm making this blog uber boring too...so I shall end here now.HA.toodle-loo! =]